Okay, So I am very happy to have gotten an invite from Val to post here. I just hope it is okay with you, Holly.
So today has been a not so crappy day (hurray). I did jog 6 miles this morning and have YET to screw it up by my other habit, binging. But....sadly I know that it won't last very long. We are going to a BBQ tonight. You know what that means! Lots of food, lots of fat, and I will take way too big of portions the first time around not to mention the second, third and possibly fourth time I venture back to the table. I just can't help myself. It's like I think I will never be going to another BBQ again or that this is may just be my last meal on earth. How stupid is that. So...I eat myself silly, struggle with wanting to throw up, and (most importantly) blow up like a balloon and have a VERY hard and VERY unsuccessful time trying to suck in the ponch. Such is the life of a compulsive eater.
I don't have to weigh myself again until Monday and that would be great except that I usually do the same thing on Sundays that I do at BBQ's. Is there no hope for such a sick person as me?
Wish me luck.
8.02.2008
Hello fellow "I'm losing it" contributors
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I'm fine with you being here but I have a question: If you can jog 6 miles, how will you deal with us hating you?
Oops, what I meant to say is why are you on a lose weight blog.
I never understood running for fun. I understand BBQs, though. Good luck with all of it. Just remember you only need a little bit per trip and then you can go back and back and end up with the grand amount you might have had in the first trip. Right?
Be nice Holly! You don't have to be way overweight to have body image issues. It just so happens that we are that way, but thinner people have feelings too. ;)
I totally agree with the BBQ thing! Whenever I am going to a party or anything it is like "I'd better eat it now because I'm sure I'll never ever see junk food again for as long as I live so I might as well eat myself sick." What a ridiculous mindset.
I'm being nice. I understand that you can have body issues at any number. I just have never had a littler number to have issues with so I don't totally *get* it.
Welcome to you and have fun blogging away!!
The fact you're here means Shaila, who is tiny by all accounts (her thighs don't even touch) can join. See? It works out for everyone!
In my defense, I come from a family where 5 of the 7 children are obese, my mother is overweight (used to be obese.....lost 100 lbs and put back on 45-50), and my father is starting to put on the 60+ weight of a man (although he runs 7 miles a day up a mountain). So....I do not have what you would call "good genes." We all have the same compulsive eating habits. The only things that separates my sister and I from the rest of the pack is that we developed a love/hate relationship with exercise at a young age. I do it because it is a habit....that is all. Some days I really love it but most days I just do it because that's what I do. It is my saving grace. The only things that keeps me from joining the rest of the family.
So....just cut me some slack, would uya.
Ahhh, I got all mama-bearish about my friend and totally forgot that my friend can hold her own.
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