Help

I have a bit of a problem. I keep losing weight, but not because I'm trying. I am so stressed out that I have absolutely no appetite and so I'm not eating enough. I know you all think I'm being stupid and should take it and be happy, but I've lost 5 pounds in the week and a half that Joe's been gone and I'm not on hcg. I'm now at 125.2 which, while I like the number, the way I've gotten there isn't healthy.

So how do I eat when the thought of eating makes me want to hurl? I like food, but nothing sounds good, I eat what I do because I know I have to eat something. But I literally ate half a peanut butter sandwich and a granola bar yesterday and that was it. I had additional calories from a couple of pops but I dropped 1.2 pounds from yesterday to today.

I know the best thing is to alleviate my stress but that's basically out of my hands. Joe's ex is making life very difficult...we're dealing with lawyers on a daily basis which gets expensive. Then Joe's job is getting ready to change which vessel he goes to so we don't know if he's coming home after just a week and a half out, if he's going straight to a new boat, or going to Louisiana for training or some combination of those. The problem there is that if he's not working on a boat he's not getting paid at his regular rate. So then we throw financial issues on top of things. Also, we've recently decided that I need to get a job so I'm filling out applications, submitting resumes, and typing up cover letters like a mad woman. I had my first interview yesterday and they offere me $9 an hour...Um no. That's kind of the whole reason I went to school and into debt was so that I could make more than they offer at Walmart. It's so bad that not only can I not eat, I'm not sleeping, and my period started an entire week early.

Any advice would be much appreciated.

I guess I'll post on here..it's been so long.

I'm not losing massive amounts of weight but for the first time I have worked out at the gym for an entire year. We are eating more healthy than ever before and I feel fabulous. Instead of dreading the gym, I look forward to it. It has become a lifestyle, not a fad or a diet. That is what I hoped for. I love when hopes become reality. :)

Now I hope you are all DOING what you want as far as healthy lifestyles go. Good luck to ya!

Talk about a vote of confidence

I have lost 25 pounds in the last 2 months..............................

Awesome right? I was feeling good about my progress.....................

And then...........

yesterday someone asked me if I was pregnant. I know she was just excited, and hoping that I was, but really, all I can do is look at my stomach and see that it is smaller, and think, don't be offended, don't be offended......

Update

I lost 12 pounds on the Hcg and then I got off it, didn't do maintenance (I never have), and am in that horrible in between stage where I'm gaining while things stabilize. It will eventually go back down so I'm not horribly concerned right now...So I'm back up 4 pounds to 130, which sucks. But, the good news is I am working out again. I am watching what I eat. I am using weights, and doing squats. On purpose. I have to hold onto the counter to sit on the toilet, or I'm in danger of falling in. In short, I'm SORE. But it's a good kind of sore, the kind where you know that you're doing something to lift and tighten things. I'm also doing a ton and a half of ab work but I have a feeling that what is left on my stomach will require surgical removal as it's less fat and more stretched out skin from having kids. Oh well, that's what savings accounts are for.

In jeans I am wearing a size 4 womens, 5 juniors. In shirts I am wearing a XS womens, S or M juniors (depends on the cut). The smallest I ever was in HS was a 6 in jeans and a M in shirts. Either vanity sizing is out of control or I really am smaller than I was then.

Hey look, a post!

I did Hcg again in April and lost ten pounds. I am on it for the last time right now and wanted to give an update...

Today is day 9...1 full week of the 500 calorie part of the diet. I am down 7.6 pounds. My weight today is 130.8.

From the time that I decided to start losing weight about 3 years ago I am now down 75 pounds. Wahoo! My weight in high school was 125, and I may actually get there again. My body is different, I have stretch marks now that I didn't have then, but I'm wearing a size 6, and I have no muffin top, no rolls of any kind. I might even get into a size 4...ridiculous! I've never been that size! Do you have any idea how good it feels to not only look good in your clothes but to also look good in your swimsuit? It's amazing! I love it! There are actually places on me where you CAN'T pinch an inch! I finally feel like me again and it's such a wonderful feeling!

Try not to hate me too much ;)

Teaching again...

So we just started aerobics at the church this week.

Good Times!

I will be teaching every other week, at least for a while.

Maybe this will help me to FINALLY get my booty into gear and shed these last few pounds.

What do you think?

Still doing good, just nothing exciting. Hope you are all eating well, playing hard and feeling good!

I'm ready to be done with this...

I have gone off the deep end today. I hit a plateau a few (FIVE) days ago and just keep dropping .2 lbs a day or nothing at all. It's very frustrating on a diet where you don't eat anything. Not that I'm hungry, because I'm not, but I'd like the option of eating a cookie if I felt like it and not being paralyzed by the fear of weight gain in the morning. Sigh.

I think that part of the problem is my period. Hcg is a pregnancy hormone which means this diet essentially tricks your body into believing it's pregnant. Hard to do when you're on your period, so what's supposed to happen is you stop taking the drops for your couple heaviest days but keep eating the diet and just add the drops back in afterwards.

Fine, I can do that. But today...oh today I had a cupcake. And two mini snickers. And a handful of sugar cereal. And things for dinner that were NOT on my diet. And chips and salsa. And a plain cake donut to top it all off.

I have a feeling the scale is going to change tomorrow, just not in the direction I want it to go lol.

Hcg Update

I've been taking the hcg drops for 7 days...the first two days are supposed to be used to "load" by eating lots of high fat/high calorie foods. Yeah, i didn't do that very well because Joe left and I had a cold and my appetite was nil. At any rate I've only been on the 500 calorie diet for five days and I've lost....drumroll please....

8 pounds exactly.

Not too shabby...I'm just doing the short course which means that I'll be on the drops for 23 days...and off by the time Joe comes home. So wish me luck!

127 this morning!! We are eating so well. I am exercising at least 4 times a week. It's a lifestyle change and I can't believe we haven't done it sooner. We are loving it! Let's hope it stays this way!
Happy Easter weekend...don't overdo it :)

hcg again

Hello everybody...

Joe is leaving today and I am going back on the hcg drops again. I'm waiting until he wakes up to weigh myself but the other day I was at 152.4 so I'm hoping I'm not too far off that mark to start. I will try to keep you all updated as to my progress, since I'm sure you're dying to know how it goes. I haven't slept all night, which sucks but is pretty normal with Joe's impending departure...Anyhoo, have a great day :)

One hundred twenty nine.

YES. I finally broke the barrier of 130! I could not be happier!! :):):):):):)

Still closing in....

So this week has not been good so far (we are all pretty sick) but let me report on the past few weeks.

5-6 days of exercise....moderate eating....good results.

I actually saw 151 on the scale the other day.  SUCH GOOD NEWS!  It IS possible.  It did disappear, however, as I am now bloating and filling up for my monthly splurge known as "Aunt Flo". 

I'll wait out her visit and get back to the scale. 

I feel really good though.  I'm down to just one feeding a day with the baby and the boobs are almost obsolete.  But...there really are worse things in life. 

I have a healthy strong body and I'm thankful for it.

I HATE plataeus.

I didn't drop of the earth

I just don't have much to say on here lately. Mostly because I am not losing weight. I'm working out at least 3 times a week. This week I went to step class twice and did my own thing twice. Starting this week, I'm not eating sugar/treats with a couple of friends. We are trying to cleanse/purge/rehabilitate ourselves. So far so good. Although I did dream of cookies and Cadbury Mini-eggs. How could I start a sugar fast right before the ONLY time of year when they sell my FAVORITE candy?!
Also, I still owe Chari $10. I never remember to send it when I have $10. I only remember after I've paid my bills and feel like AAAHHHHH WE'RE GOING TO RUN OUT OF MONEY BEFORE WE RUN OUT OF MONTH!!!! I hate student loans btw. Sorry Chari. Someday you will receive a mysterious $10 and wonder "WTH? Oh well, 10 bucks is 10 bucks." Maybe. Or maybe you will die loathing my lack of follow through on social committments.
So, that's where I've been. I tried to weigh myself today but the only scale at the gym I was out is by the trainer's desk. Uh, no thank you! I'll do it next week when I'm at my regular gym. That scale is in the locker room.

In conclusion I leave you with a blog post I came across a couple of days ago that spoke to me -- particularly the last big paragraph. Happy reading!

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I suck at this!

Currently blogging and weight loss :(

Time to check in...

153.....STILL! (I mean up and down but that's the consistent #).

Really...I should be grateful (and I am).

I have been baking A LOT lately. Never been into it before. Probably why I have never had such a hard time loosing weight before. Hmmmmm!

Oh well...at least I'm consistent.

And...I have at least another two years to maintain. I've got time, right? As long as the #'s are not higher I have nothing to complain about. (except my chubby thighs, and dimply butt and sad stretched out tummy...oh, and I will be weening Kian soon so I will be saying goodbye to my beautiful B cup boobs and hello to my less than A cup flaps of skin. Sad day!)

Weigh In

I weighed myself the other day...151.8. Not having an appetite can really work for you ;)

Joe comes home in a week, so I fully anticipate a little weight gain on the horizon, but in the meantime I'm feeling pretty good, kinda sexy, can't wait to see my husband :)

Rambling

I don't know what I weigh right this second. The other day it was 154.8 which I was pretty happy about given the fact that I ate like a pig for a month while Joe was home and didn't work out at all. I'm weird, I eat when I'm happy, not when I'm worried or upset, or nervous, or any other negative emotion you care to throw out there. But Joe left just over a week ago and my appetite left with him. I've lost 2 lbs without even trying...nothing sounds good, nothing tastes good. I eat, but meh, I could do without it. In fact today, I had to force myself to eat at all, which sounds funny when you think about the fact that it's me we're talking about here. Anyway, i'm sure it'll pass. I just thought I'd post since I haven't for awhile...carry on ;)

Melanie

Did you reach your goal?

I

sure

hope

so!

I got donuts yesterday. Why did I do this?

Jeans

I went shopping for jeans yesterday...something I really hate doing.

I went down TWO SIZES. WHAT!? That was fun. Really fun. I enjoyed it so much. One more pant size and I will be to my goal.

Let's all stay on this feeling great roll. Shall we!?

Feeling better

First of all, good job Mel, I'm sure you'll be there in no time!

I am feeling much better about life in general. I haven't weighed since the beginning of January, and thankfully I had only gained 3 of the 5 pounds I had lost the week before Christmas, so it wasn't so bad.....

Until this weekend I have done much better about eating good foods, and eating smaller portions. I like when I can see/feel the difference in my body, numbers mean very little when you still feel fat. But when I can look in the mirror and think that my butt looks smaller it is very encouraging! Today I wore a skirt that I haven't been able to fit in since before I had Carson...............YIPPEE!!! It was exhillerating!

Now, if I can only continue to feel good, the rest will be easy, right?

So close I can feel it~!

152 lbs.

2 lbs to goal!

It's killing me......KILLING ME!

9 1/2 months postpartum....KILLING ME!