Sucking in does NOT make a difference on the scale.

Why is it that every time I step on a scale I suck my gut in as far as I can? Like it will make a difference or something. Yeah, it baffles me also but, I'm sure I'm not alone.

So.......why is it that I now step on the scale and find myself back to the weight I was last summer when I had a total freak-out thinking my life was ending and I was on my way to obesity?

Could it be:
* food medication
*2 vacations in the last month (aka eat whatever, whenever....you are on vacation)
*lots of eating out
*not so great workout schedule (you would think my workout schedule was awesome because I am an aerobics instruction but......it's not. Especially when you take two back to back vacations and don't lift weights for 2 weeks)
*did I mention medicating my life's sorrows with food?

I totally feel poopy. I'm only 2 lbs above my "all-time goal weight" (don't judge too harshly.........please keep in mind that I have been 4 lbs under my goal weight for a good 8 months now) but I feel totally out of control. I hate that. If I were this weight and were so "responsibly" I would be totally fine. But, gaining weight because I am eating myself to death.....I am not cool with that. I work too hard to be gaining weight.

I don't expect comment.....in fact, don't really want it........I'm just venting since my paper journal is somewhere unknown.