a bit redundant....no?

Yipee-ca-yeay!

4 week weight gain.....1 1/2 lbs. Yeay for me!

Yipee-ca-yeay!

4 week weight gain.....1 1/2 lbs. Yeay for me!

Yipee-ca-yeay!

4 week weight gain.....1 1/2 lbs. Yeay for me!

One week to go....

I've made it three whole weeks without any treats. That's huge for me! There have been a couple of close calls (like the baby shower I had for my cousin ...or the birthday party for my grandpa...or like every night after the kids are in bed!) but I've held strong. The one slip up was when we went to dinner this weekend as a family and they accidentally brought me regular soda instead of the diet that I'd ordered. So not my fault! I'm not counting that. One more week to go!

As far as the rest of my weight loss journey, not much happening there. Since I last reported, I've lost a whole 1 lb. That's it. I've been so good about exercising, building up time and intensity, and eating better and less. Joe tries to comfort me by saying that I'm rebuilding all of the muscle that I lost after an entire pregnancy on the brink of bedrest...but seriously, I could would appreciate some better results for my efforts! Oh well, I'll keep at it and hopefully the results will come...soon.

Also weighing in

I realize that I did not actually say the numbers in my last post. So. I weighed 139 lbs and logged an amazing (sarcasm) 30% on the body fat meter. Now I am up to 141 lbs but I'm okay with that because *drum roll please* I lost 2% on the body fat meter! Yea! And since muscle weighs more than fat, it's okay that I have gained weight because I know that I will start losing later -- ya know, after I convert a bunch of fat to muscle. My abs though....still resemble Jello.
In other news, that whole no sugar thing lasted exactly 2 days. Now I'm going for moderation. Like, I won't eat all the cookie dough, just a couple of bites.
I did learn that I do better if I stay not hungry. I know, I know. Everyone knows that. There's a difference between knowing and knowing though. Ya know. So, I must make a better effort at having an actual lunch plan as well as actual snack plans between meals. Otherwise I break down into a treat-seeking missile.
Oh yea. And to brag (because that is at least 50% of my exercise motivation on some days): I went to spin class again today. I arrived early so I could do some back and shoulder lifting before class. After class, my friend Mindy, who is crazy in a good let's exercise kind of way, turned to me and said, "Ready to run a mile?" "bwahahahahaha! oh. you're serious. um. okay." or something like that was my response. So we ran a mile. Then we did a small ab workout. I WORKED OUT FOR 2 HOURS. 2 HOURS PEOPLE. I may lose it yet........

Weigh In

Last week sometime I weighed myself and I am now willing to own the number: 181 lbs. YIKES! Since then I have been watching what I eat better and have cut out the beef and pork products and increased the vegetable intake. So today when I weighed myself I was happier with the number I got: 178 lbs. So yay for eating better and weight coming off. Also the amount of walking I do to and from classes is probably helping in the exercise category (you know, as opposed to no exercise), but I do realize that I need to get back in that particular groove. So much of this last 6 months has been about survival, but I feel like I'm coming back into control of my own life and may be able to actually care about how I look again.

The ultimate stretch

I LOVE it when my belly starts growing so big that it starts stretching and pulling the previously formed love handles out. Not so bad. I don't feel so chubby and hopefully wont have to worry too much again about the "handles" until after delivery. That gives me a little less that three months to enjoy some semblance of "fatbacklessness". Then....it will be back in full force.

I suppose I will have to deal with it then.

How's it going? Well....

I am beginning day three of no sugary treats/snacks. I had one minor slip up when I wasn't thinking and had a piece of broken cookie. I didn't even realize what I'd done until it was halfway down. I'm so not counting it because at least I didn't say, "Oops. Well, since I already messed up....."
I got up yesterday in plenty of time to make it to the 5:45 spin class with Mindy (Ash fed at 4 and I didn't really go to sleep after). Then we did some tricep exercises. Today, my buns hurt so much from the "saddle" that it's hard to sit....
Mid day yesterday I took a nap and woke up with a killer headache and nausea. It's hard to know if that's from sugar withdrawl or the obscene hours I saw that morning.
So today.... still going on the sugar deal. My workout didn't happen today though. I slept hard until 7 when I fed Ash, made breakfast and eventually went to back to bed. Finally at 10 I drug my sorry self out of bed. (Usually the kids are up long before that but we had friends over until late and miraculously that evolved into sleeping in.) And here I am.

I want to be thin again

This originally started out as a comment on Sheena's post (see below), but as it grew massively I decided it needed to be it's own post....

I like Sheena's plan. I am attempting to also get a plan. Currently I am in negotiations with Sugar. I keep telling Sugar that I am willing to eat it if it will in return pass straight thru my system without installing itself in my fat cells. But Sugar's all, "I can't do that, it's physically impossible for that to happen". And I'm all, "But if you really loved me you'd do this for me". And then Sugar comes back with, "Have some freakin' self-control and only eat me in moderation". I think at this point Sugar may be winning at the negotiation table. Heartless Sugar.

But maybe, just maybe I can come back with......Splenda! Splenda is not sugar, Splenda is a sugar SUBSTITUTE. Which means I can eat more with fewer consequences (don't burst my illogical bubble on this one). And, LOTS OF THINGS CONTAIN SPLENDA. (I like saying it: Splenda. Splenda. Splenda. It just sounds so splendid!) Because honestly, I think for about 3 weeks a month I could probably just shun sugar, but then I'd get to that 4th week (which is actually the week I'm in now, sorry, TMI) when all the wires get crossed and I feel like I will quite possibly implode if I don't have sugar in my system RIGHT THIS MINUTE!!!!! And it's at that point that I know that I will fail.

Which is a very long and rambling way to say I'm going on a Splenda diet. Also, I'm giving up red meat and pork, because my body doesn't like them as well as it likes chicken. Also also, I bought the Wii Active because I'm feeling stubborn about getting up in the morning to workout, but I do have a small window of time when I'm home from school and the kids are napping that I could squeeze something in. And right now, anything is better than nothing. Perhaps someday I will do both. We'll see.