New Kid On The Blog

Hello and thanks for letting me join your party/group therapy session, it's exactly what I need! I totally need to be accountable to other people (hubby's don't count in my book). Here's my quick and dirty info:

I'm right in the thick of a weightloss battle known as MY LIFE and I've accepted that it will last exactly that long. There's no way, even if and when I reach my goal, that this will EVER get easy. Let's be honest. I have always been fat. I did a slideshow for my Mom's 50th birthday a couple of weeks ago and I was mortified at some of the pictures because I don't think that I ever realized how big I was, I always thought that I was "a little chubby" but I had no idea how bad it was. Most of you know my Mom so I won't go there too much, but looking back I never had any motivation to be healthy. She was overweight and I was her only daughter so of course I would be overweight. End of Story.

I reached my all-time highest weight a little over a year ago at the end of my 5th pregnancy. Before delivery I was 248 and 2 weeks later I was down a measly 25 pounds to 223. That's when I started Weight Watchers (again, I've done that in between almost every pregnancy). I stopped WW in March for $$$ reasons and have been trying to do it on my own since then.

After months of doing excercise videos at home, some ladies from church invited me to go running with them in the mornings. Well, she invited me over the phone before having actually met me in person, I'm pretty sure that if we'd been face to face she wouldn't have thought that I'd be interested, or is that just my own insecurities, who knows. Other than running the mile in gym (which I did pathetically and usually walked the whole way) I've never run before. But I was up for a change and a challenge so I started on my own because I didn't want to embarass myself in front of these new potential friends. Now I'm hooked and while I'm still very slow (and probably not very graceful) I'm training for a half marathon in about a month.

I'm 20-25lbs aways from my goal, which is where I have been for several weeks. I can't seem to take any more off. So frustrating. The good thing is that I'm skinnier now than I ever been. The bad thing is that it's because of the running, not because I've changed my bad habits. I'm a major compulsive emotional eater. I need therapy so that's why I'm here, right? My weight yesterday was 165 (that was after an 8.6 mile run, the day before that I was 168). So there you have it. When I registered for the race I had to sign up under the "Healthy but Heavier" division. I'd love to loose the "Heavier" title.